Homestar Runner Wiki Forum

As a stickler, I, too, want to make sure things are going just right. And about the part in a locked article called "Advice for whoever is able to edit," I really didn't mean the fact that I'd go nuts, so I seriously apoligize for that and for using an exclamation point. The thing is, that since my family doesn't know that I can post messages and such in the forum, I never have enough time to make it look more calm. What I regret is that I made Wiki users a little strict. Well, gotta go.

Well, nothing really, only about the one million times I've said something really insensitive or inappropriate (not THAT kind of inappropriate, get your mind out of the gutter).

Sorry. I don't mean to hurt anyone's feelings.

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So, so you think you can tell Heaven from Hell, blue skies from pain. Can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail? A smile from a veil? Do you think you can tell?

Stuff I feel guilty about? Mostly it has been my desire to be the best...though I've really gotten better about that.

Growing up, I always felt like a social pariah. Other kids in my grade would insult me however they could, telling me how worthless I was, etc...and I would generally believe them. So, whenever I found something that I knew I had a knack for (such as music), I clung onto it and tried to develop it as best as I could, so I could have something to show to people when they tried to tell me that I was worthless.

However, my fear of rejection was so strong that I felt like I couldn't afford to just be another mediocre musician or composer or writer or whatever--no, to really shut them up, I wanted to be the best; not just the best living, but even the best there ever was. It's ludicrous, I know, and very egotistical of me. And don't get me wrong--I didn't pursue music in college simply out of spite from old childhood insults; I do earnestly love the craft for its own sake as well. However, I would still get easily discouraged and jealous whenever I came across someone else relatively my same age or younger that was doing either as well or better than me.

Eventually, and with the help of some very good friends, I learned that it's not a competition, and it's not healthy or productive for me to compare myself and my work to others. I still get discouraged once in a while, but it's nowhere near as bad now.

I think that's pretty much it, as far as what I feel guilty for. Oh, and sometimes I think that I spend too much time in the R&P forum here and not enough time in other forums. I'll work on that.

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The meaning of life is 'bucket.'

FOR PONY!!!

*clap clap* so beutiful...
any moo, my guilt is the sheer fact I have such a calm sense of humor (mostly) that when people are serious I don't take them serious...that and that time I went psyco (only once) and bit a kid, andaccidently head but him in the nose...poor Eric

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(Insert Witty or Philosophical Quote Here)

My sin.

Set.

That is all.

I always feel guilty when I don't live up to my parent's expectations. I do it much more for dad, even though he barely asks me of anything, while I don't do it much for my mom, even though we're a bit closer. I just want to see them proud of me for accomplishing something important to them and me. I don't want to do something where I'll be unhappy, yet my parents are proud, though I sometimes feel it has to be that way. On the other hand, I really want to do something where I'll be happy, but yet be kind of a let-down for my parents. I also feel guilty of being a jerk to my friend. Maybe I should just have some fun once in a while.

Off-topic: Happy 1,000th post, Alex.

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